myfirstlovewillbeyou's Xanga

* Confirmation *

Sat, 10 Jan 2009 09:23:18 GMT

I'll be using Blogspot from now onwards.. although I do really miss using Xanga.

But since I've notify my friends about the changes, so I guess I really have to switch =(

I'll definately confirm surely miss using Xanga in the future.

http://lovesjaclyn.blogspot.com

I'll remain my xanga blog for some future preference and reference. I still have my memories here

I hope I can cope with Blogspot.

Sigh.

How cruel it is to leave my Xanga baby...................

So.. please stay with me :

http://lovesjaclyn.blogspot.com

xoxo, muacks.

p/s: who knows some day I might reveal something secret here ? ^_^

Friday, January 09, 2009

Fri, 09 Jan 2009 04:33:14 GMT

www.lovesjaclyn.blogspot.com

Having some problem with Xanga. So please go :

www.lovesjaclyn.blogspot.com
www.lovesjaclyn.blogspot.com

www.lovesjaclyn.blogspot.com

* This Sounds Crazy *

Tue, 23 Dec 2008 16:03:26 GMT

I still see Kenneth as the closest person with me after my parents, thanks to the couple thingy. I realised sleeping is a very good way for my to calm my own emotions and miserable feelings. After cried to sleep, it will be a new day.

It works very well espcially I have fights and arguements with Kenneth.

Oh ya, finally got my new cam. Actually its my mum's but we always share things and she doesn't cam whore like me so I think I shall own it (for most of the time) cause I'm a cam whore freak wtf.

p/s: No pictures in this post yet cause... I also don't know why wtf.

Ok, 3 posts for a days. That is enough. ( actually I have plenty things to blog about but save it for next time, did I just said I'm talkactive? Ngehehe )

Its 1.01 am. I'm damn sleepy. Gonna brush teeth and wash face. Good night.

xoxo, muacks.
p/s: Candy taught me of using " xoxo" wtf.
p.p/s : After re-reading this I don't find any crazyness in this blog post. I'm just tired right now. Sigh.
p.p.p/s : Ok I still will miss him =(

* I Need Some Help *

Tue, 23 Dec 2008 15:34:31 GMT

Was on 4 hours phone with Candy, she finally got her Happy Sim. 45 minutes call for only RM 1. I was thinking of getting one too. But I haven't activate my bank account yet. The card is just for showing off wtf.

But really, its so worth since I'm a talkative person. But I have to activate my ATM card 1st ( I don't need to run to the Bank for money, I just get it from home, my parents wtf )

I really, really, really need help in customizing my blog layout so that I can add links, chat box but I'm just suck in networking ( I've said that before, sigh )

p/s : Few minutes ago in MSN Louis just said I better just focus on my STPM cause I'll have 6 months free time for this after the exam wtf.

But blogging is all I do during my past time..

INEEDHELPINEEDHELPINEEDHELP

Whoever is able to help me will receive a virtual big bear hug.

p/s : I think I better get back to my studies. Sigh

* This Will Be My Xmas *

Tue, 23 Dec 2008 05:53:47 GMT

Seriously, I still have no idea about how am I going to spend my xmas and new year.

But according to this few days observations..... I seem to found out something ( not going to say here cause its very heartaching ) All I can say is I AM AVAILABLE on this 2 special date/days.

Don't be surprise. Its very normal. From now onwards, I'm going to be available again. Kinda sad at the 1st place, but think of the bright side, I get to spend more time with myself doing things I like.

My happiness, sadness, dreams and hopes, regrets were all came from him in the past 3 years. That's the main and only reason that made me turned into who I am today.

Few more days to new year. After figure, think and consider for months, I realised I have to put a full stop in this sad life.

I don't have to be with a guy who sees me as the last person in his life. I don't mean last and the only companion. Its about the my position in his heart. It is very obvious and also proven after all these donkey years.

What should I worry about my life status in the future? I have admirers whom see me as their perfect one and I'm like a treasure, one in a million to them. Atleast from here I can see and know how precious I am to this world.

The love is kept. The memories and happy moments are locked deep inside my memory.

Some day, I will have someone to be my most special one and my one in a million

* Short Update *

Mon, 22 Dec 2008 07:53:39 GMT

Good news or bad news?

Merylyn is not leaving to the west anymore !! ^_^ Ok, I did hoped that she will get the offer, and also hoped that she doesn't has to leave..

Now the only closest friend of mine is not leaving, atleast I still got someone to be with in school.

Happy me ^_^

* Wtf !? *

Thu, 18 Dec 2008 05:33:23 GMT

Your Sins are Revealed, Your Fate is Sealed

Your sin has been measured. Happily for you, your sin profile leaves room for forgiveness. Just below, discover your full sinful breakdown and see the areas that you must improve

Greed:	Low
Gluttony:	Medium
Wrath:	Medium
Sloth:	Medium
Envy:	Low
Lust:	Medium
Pride:	Medium

WTF?

Ok I know I'm not nice, but atleast I ain't that mean at all wtf.

Greed: I don't take things for granted.. so I'm not Greedy

Gluttony: The best things in the world are to eat, poo, pee, play and sleep. How can I resist FOOD? Tell me I'm a Glutton and I'll give a shit on you. No, the world will sue you for not enjoying food. Its also a sin though wtf.

Wrath: Ok.. I will not say I'm a spoiled child ( even though if I really am wtf ) It is VERY NORMAL to get angry and it is VERY REASONABLE when female gets Wrath especially when menstruation comes. Blame the hormones.

Sloth: I admit I'm very lazy. I love to sleep. That is why mama usually mad at me when I didn't finish my work.

Envy: Again, it is VERY NORMAL when female get to envy others. Mostly are females to females, of course. Who the heck will wanna care about if a guy's car has been modified? I care more about LV Chanel Guess Gucci Prada..........................................................

Lust: This is easy. I don't do porns. I got LOVE, so then LUST.

Pride: Hmm.. I love the word. Call me a Bitch means you're a loser cause you don't even know that I really am a bitch.

Try it if you think you're a good man, I bet you're not ! Wtf.

* I Am Wondering * Something Something

Wed, 17 Dec 2008 08:16:39 GMT

Just wondering.

Who reads my blog from time to time?

I am very curious though.

As far as I know I just know one reader among the rest of them.

I'm thinking...

How about..

YOU ( Yes its YOU ! Right infront of the screen. )

Let me know about your present?

I would love to know who do care to read what I ~~shit~~ wrote.

Come one, just drop a hi

p/s : All these while I do have a private blog. Will all my true feelings and voices from my heart. Not to say I ignore the use of this blog. Xanga is so much better with big pictures ^_^ One thing I don't like is I don't know how to customize my blog page. Sigh. I know I'm suck in it.

I don't use blogspot although I have a blogger account. Just because it is hard to handle the pictures ( I just get used to Xanga, very easy ^_^ ) I just use Gmail instead even though Blogspot allows third party code to be insert.

Wordpress = super boring blog skin =(

Live Journal. Oh I love their blog skins !! There're hundreds of them and I had a hard time to choose one of them. But I still give up on LJ cause of the pictures and I don't know how to add links. Sigh

I'm just very bad in networking.

Wretch is a very poplular blog site in Taiwan. Quite OK. One thing very convenient about Wretch is it has a page specially for Albums and you can set right click disable so that people cant get to save your pictures. That is the only thing I like about Wretch.

Msn Spaces. I just love their elegant blog skin. Too bad is Msn Spaces is very lag.

But I think I shall make that place where my lil voice + feelings revealed...

Won't upload any pictures there unless I feel vain that day wtf.

It my secret's hiding place.

Xanga is just right and fine for my daily retard acts.

See, very suitable right and its just the right moment for my retarded look shown.

p.p/s : My 2nd voice in my heart tells me if there's no one leaves a comment to prove if they ever exist in my blog then this post might be a humiliating post that I made for myself.

Well, let it be.

I just wanna know who really treasures the sincere and true words from my heart.

* I Finally Knew * Updated !!!

Sat, 13 Dec 2008 12:52:08 GMT

Yeap.. I finally knew what should I give to Kenneth.

Something meaningfull, can be used for a lifetime, priceless, easy, simple.

^_^

Love coupons for him.

Seriously, I found out I'm very attached to the computer this few days. I can just sit infront of it without going to toilet or drink water for like hours omg ! Why?

Cause I was finding some hidden memories. The conclusion is : Yes I did found them and now then realised I was that naive and stupid to believe those lies, and was that slow and not updated with current issues. Sigh.

Very stupid indeed.

No wonder the people that lie to me live that happily wtf.

I know I can easily believe what people tells me. I tried to tell myself do not believe 100 percent when people tell me something but I naturally and automatically will just believe them. Guess its my nature.. sigh.

I wonder if this turns out to be some good thing for people to like me wtf. Tian Zhen mah.

And I also found out I used to use Malayglish ( Malaysian English) alot and punya lah buruk. I was telling myself to improve my english so I started by reading and talking and watching and TRIED to listen and even spoke to ang mohs. But I just don't really know if I did ever improved or not. I guess not.

Now I have a friend named Brandon who is very damn si beh punya hen hou good in english, much better than you, Kenneth, hahahaha and might can compete with Evena I guess. I told him that I wanna learn Britsh speakings and wtf now whenever we start to talk to each other he'll say : Ok I'm going to start the British slang ah so you better get ready. And I was laughing at my funny slang speaking in Britsh slang. I guess I only get used to American slang. Thanks to CSI wtf.

What else can I do in order to improve my english?? Sigh. I really like english alot but I just don't know HOW.

Just indulge myself in everything that is connection with english ~_~

Now is 12.27 in the morning and oh no I'm going to sleep late again? My skin looks really pale and dry because lack of beauty sleeps. My hair too.. No matter how many kinds or treatment or hair serum I put it still turns out to be very dry.. Even my mum said I look older than her wtf.

Holiday isn't that really good afterall. wtf

But I'm sure I will not sleep immediately after I shut down the computer because will sure sms with Kenneth a lil more while unless I'm very damn tired.

Night, Loves.

p/s : Might off for sometime cause school is going to start next week, driving test is on and Kenneth is back again ! Whee~ and also my fav CHRISTMAS !!!!

Muacks

* I Can't Breath *

Sat, 13 Dec 2008 04:43:34 GMT

Please, I beg you all.

I don't want to live in such atmposphere, such family.

I really don't like you, you, you, you........................ I hate your attitudes.

I'm confused, miserable. I'm not having my emotional attitude disturbing my mind. What caused these is all because of the stupid life especially the situation that I'm in right now.

FUCK.

Damn it.